L O V E is in the air
F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
So last night I was given three awards from my high school. I was recognized for having a 3.8 GPA or higher throughout high school and I was given a silver tassel to wear around my neck for graduation. I was also recognized by the National Art Honors Society for taking more than 5 art classes and achieving above an A in all of them, and I was given a rainbow tassel for both my graduation cap and to wear around my neck.
But more importantly than all of the garb.
My school decided to honor me with the achievement in Film award.
I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face as I walked to the stage. I was so amazingly happy. I got a massive applause and I felt like crying.
Film was the one thing that really got me through high school, and to know that both of my film teachers think that I’m really good at not just screenwriting and analysis but also all the other parts of film is really a chestburster for me. It fills me with so much pride and happiness to know that if I put that much love into something I’ll be recognized for it. It makes everything worth it. It makes loving something so passionately that you go blind to other things around it, worth it.
All I can say is that; it was worth it.
Making it through all of that pain and sadness to realize that the thing you love is the thing that people know you for and that they support you is the greatest feeling in the world.
I’m so unbelievably lucky to have had such a good senior year. I love all of my teachers and fellow students in ways I doubt other people will understand.
I’m happy I didn’t kill myself in high school. No matter how dark it got. This moment, this week, these friendships, these teachers, this love, made it worth everything. All of the pain in the world makes this moment worth more than gold.
Jim Jarmusch (via A Gentlewoman)